the spoon drawer

 hey y’all I don’t know wtf is in the air (actually I feel like I know what some of it is like the world being on fire and also my own neurodivergent brain) but it has felt so off and weird lately. I would love to know if anyone else has been feeling it. It’s like this weirdly calm but also anxious feeling of something coming or like somethings going to happen kind of like impending doom but I don’t think it’s doom but I don’t know what it is lol. I’m a pretty spiritual person and I’ve been having this feeling for a while but it intensifies at different times. also, the ocd has been so bad lately, so if anyone else struggles with ocd, I am so sorry and I see you. It genuinely feels like you’re not allowed to be happy or even just exist. and my chronic illness has been awful too so fun. and now I want to start writing a short novella and have already started writing the first chapter lol. should I post it here? talk soon

 hi everyone. first of all, holy shit at all the love on my poem I posted a few days ago on my tiktok. I am so grateful to everyone who is liking and sharing it. I honestly did not expect that many people to resonate with it, especially on the other persons post.  also, I appreciate the people who are saying I deserve credit, and I do agree, but I also am just grateful that so many people are seeing it because it brought them to my page so I’m happy. it’s so beautiful to know so many women relate to it and of course it’s also heartbreaking. I’ve seen several posts of women talking about their own experiences and it’s beautiful. I’m just so happy that my art and writing are finally getting seen and appreciated after what feels like years of trying. being chronically ill has been one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through, but I always have my passion for creating. thank you again and see you soon.